catching up...

the emotions are starting to catch up. i think the reality of having graduated from college is just starting to take a punch. it's amazing. over a month ago, i was strutting across the stage to accept my diploma, and it's just now starting to make me cry. i am moving. maybe that's the catalyst. i love change, i love to move and start over and lift heavy furniture and work out the logistics (because i ashamedly have that much crap to tow around)...i went 'home' for the afternoon/evening today, and as i was on my way out the door, mom started to cry and i started to cry and it made me think about my first day of college. i was in washington state, definitely not the hour drive i am now, but it felt a bit the same way. a sort of passage, moving on and forward, enjoying the past, being excited and nervous about the future. mom said that after she left me in washington, she cried the whole 2 day drive back home. i only cried for 3 minutes after i left the house tonight, but i feel like a big part of things has begun to shift.
roadtrips kind of freak me out. my family is leaving over the course of the next two days to go on a road trip and i am not going with them. i have these nightmareish visions of hurdling car crashes and headlong accidents and i can't help but pray they won't be involved in something similar. i get queasy even thinking about it. is that weird?
there is this autoshop and carwash place up the way from our neighborhood. for as long as i can remember their sign out on the main street has house random thoughts or quotes or quips that make your drive the slightest bit more enjoyable. the two on the board for the last couple of months have been the following: "the softer the bread, the harder the butter" and the second, "whoever angers you controls you" touche. however, the latter is grammatically incorrect, which adds a touch of humor. i ask in the car on the way home from dinner, "Shouldn't that read whoMever angers you..." mom nods her head.
As for the other quote, what the hell?